Monday, November 10, 2014

keping terakhir

kupandang keluar jendela
langit gelap sore ini
mendung...aku resah

masih terlihat mengintip sedikit sinar matahari di sela pepohonan
meskipun petir telah menyuruhnya lenyap
namun ia tetap tak mau lelap

kupejamkan mata
membiarkan sisa sinar matahari itu menghangatkan aku
semakin lama ia kian menghilang
mungkin ia takut
atau mungkin tak ingin ribut

kudengar rintik hujan perlahan turun
dan lagu itu tiba-tiba mengalun
lagu sendu
bawa masa lalu
sentuh kalbu

hujan jadi deras
air mata juga terkuras
habis
melankolis

aku melihatmu di sela hujan itu
aku mengingatmu di dalam alun lagu ini
aku menemukanmu dimanapun
kamu belum pergi

ah

bukan

aku belum biarkanmu pergi

maaf

pergilah jika mau
pergilah kalau ingin
aku tak lagi memaksa

tapi jangan bawa memori itu
biarkan aku megingatnya
setidaknya aku mengingat hal indah

hangat

tinggalkan untukku
tolong

karena aku suka
aku suka mengingat aku pernah bahagia


denganmu
di dalam bahagiamu




Senin, 10 November 2014, 2:57pm
bersama hujan, tetes infus, aroma rumah sakit
Sisca Nusi Wiandri

Thursday, February 13, 2014

for sisca

"terlahirmu di 2 Agustus 1998
melekatkan bapak dan mamamu
membuat kami semakin menyadari
memutuskan meniti hidup lebih hangat

terlahirmu memupuk semangat
hari demi hari pertumbuhanmu
makin hangat makin ceria
dengan tangisan, terlebih tawamu

Sisca Nusi Wiandri
terlahirmu adalah berkah dari surga
hingga waktu menjaga kita
dalam rengkulan kasih cinta

terlahirmu adalah karunia
yang indah terencana
anakku sayang, buah hati kami
tetap lekatkanlah belahan jiwa kami
dengan cintamu yang terbekati"

Singapore, 2 Sept 2004
Made by my one and only hero, my super daddy
Nusi Dwi Christanto

love you, dad. i really do xx

Sunday, January 19, 2014

2013's of mine, how's yours?

since it's still january which is the beginning of 2014, i think it wasn't too late (yet) to reviewing what i've been through and what's on earth happen in my 2013
oh, and no, i'm not going to make some new year resolutions cause i know it's gonna looks quite a lot like my last year resolutions so....yeah ha-ha

and this is what happen to my 2013:
  1. in the beginning of 2013, i (and my 9th-graders friend all around the world) had a lot of exam trials (or just usually called 'try out') to prepared our National Exam which really drives us crazy. we also had a fully tears 'farewell and near National Exam apologizing time' day (it's a weird name, i know, i'm sorry, i made it myself few seconds ago)
  2. around April, we had (we've done it now) our junior high National Exam and it was good....maybe.....perhaps....i think, yeah even it was rainy in our last exam but it was literally fun
  3. after National Exam, we really really had a good quality time as a 9th grade student, we had our last party class with lots of pizzas (that moment was so fun) and a preparation for our graduation which is literally emotional and....i don't know, those moment just felt unreal. we really had a lot of fun with each other, our lovely teachers, our juniors, and just amazing...it was indescribable
  4. we were also busy to manage our senior high preparation and tests.. and. so. do. i. and. salim. and also. aji. we were actually supposed to school in Muhammadiyah Senior High School (SMAMDA) together. but caused by an accident (look at number 8), i have to moved out. but those time was so fun and memorable cause we three had a lot of new amazing experiences. it was also nerve-racking to wait for the result tests
  5. on May, WE WENT TO BALI FOR FAREWELL TOUR AND IT WAS SO SO GREAT and it was a good time with those bitches and bros, i was so happy even i (and salim) can't went with school (so we went there by plane and it was such a new fun experience, but i have to missed Ma'am Ifa's birthday party), that's not a big deal...the last day there, I GOT MY SMAMDA'S RESULT THAT SAID THAT I ACCEPTED ON BAHASA CLASS WITH SALIM AND AJI ON SOCIAL CLASS. we. made. it.
  6. June, our National Exam's result coming out. mine....wasn't good enough, and i think it was disappointing ha-ha but i won't mind it, i've done my best and mostly because i did it myself
  7. 14th of July......*drum noises* graduation day!! woohooooo it was exciting, emotional, lots of fun, tears of pain, tears of joy, laugh, smile on each other's faces, drama and farewell.....we find it hard to believe that we were finally there, we've through everything together in these amazing 3years and now it's time.....to end it all, to say goodbye, and to let it go..it is literally over
  8. there's an accident with my grandparents that made me have to move from SMAMDA and find another school......to summary, i finally here, in one of Vocational High School in town where i know no one and..............lots of differences from my middle school and elementary school. it was the hardest time in 2013 or even in my whole life.. so i won't talk about it anymore
  9. *lot of things changed here* *yes i'm talking bout love* *i'm starting find it cheesy* *cut myself off* *lol* *no* *skip*
  10. augustus 27, this is also the hardest time in 2013...i, we, lost our strong, inspirational, great, amazing, beautiful Grandma in the world. it's so hard to write about it. i miss her much.
  11. i had to say goodbye to my old memorable phone
  12. i took a car driving course
  13. i finally can drive a car
  14. i went to Jogja and met my childhood talented friend, Adel, since it has been a long long time.. 
  15. i started loving Zoella, Joe Sugg, Alfie Deyes, Marcus Butler, Caspar Lee and friends, and i started watching them almost everyday like i can't stop they're amazing
  16. Tiffany Alvord followed me on twitter, Fabian Manzano from Boyce Avenue replied my tweet, and Matthew Grieh from Antics Dance Crew (semi finalist of Got to Dance) favorited my tweet
  17. *struggling with school stuffs and friends and life that's getting rough*
  18. i learn about something new, new life and new things with my senior high friends which is really open my eyes, i'm so lucky
  19. 4th of december...........drum please.......*dumdumdum*.........I WENT TO BOYCE AVENUE'S CONCERT IN BALI WHICH IS MASSIVE like it was a dream and oh my God i just can't believe it.. i went there with my own money, met some new friends, got to meet them in person and it felt so amazing and oh geez, i'm a happy girl
so, that's it, my 2013, i'm sorry if it seems boring to you but i'm so grateful about my 2013 and i think it was my most massively amazing and wonderful year like ever
how's yours?;)
can you imagine that love?
we miss you a lot, granny
teman sejak bayi. what a talented boy.
geez
happy day!
she followed me xx
what a massively massive!


ps. ditulis dengan bahasa inggris yang seada-adanya di tahun 2014. tidak sedikitpun diperbaiki. semoga dapat dimaklumi.

Saturday, December 07, 2013

journey towards dream

....................HAPPY DECEMBER EVERYONE
such a good beginning of December (not only good, it was massive!), I MET BOYCE AVENUE BABY
they're supremely ah-may-zing guys til you could never imagine lol ini alay tapi sungguh

so, for those who doesn't know Boyce Avenue yet, i'll tell you a bit before i'm starting my story;)

Boyce Avenue is a band formed in Sarasota, Florida that have Daniel Manzano, Fabian Manzano, and Alejandro Manzano as the personnel and they are siblings!! Daniel is the first brother, Fabian is the second one, and Alejandro is the last one:D Daniel and Fabian are married
they started playing music on 2007 and share it on youtube

and on Wednesday, December 4th, 2013 i met them in person babyyyyy i had a meet&greet with em
omg best thing ever in life so far:'D

and here's the story begin

it just started on July 2013
sejujurnya saya sudah mengumpulkan duit selama puluhan taun dan abad (ok mulai alay)...ngga ding, sejak bulan Juli, berjuang ngumpulin duit jajan dan jualan ini-itu, hingga saya akhirnya sampai pada titik duit yang cukup buat beli tiket pesawat, tiket m&g dan sebenarnya cukup buat hotel juga but ternyata gapake hotel so akhirnya saya putuskan buat beli gift buat mereka (sudah diperhitungkan sejak awal, tbh, krn gamau bebanin ortu samasekali)

kenapa bisa sudah siap2 begitu lama? because they're posting this >> Boyce Avenue - Tour Announcement & Live Performance Part 1!!! << hosted by Zalfie<3
they said that they're coming to Indonesia so i'm trying so hard to get money to come!!

hingga akhirnya.........suatu hari ketika di sekolah, they were posting this on twitter
and i was like screaming on my class and trying to get an internet connection to open the link to know when they're gonna come to Indonesia......setelah dapet modem dan buka link nya.......jengjeng the result is
AND MY FINAL EXAM IS GONNA BE HELD ON DECEMBER 2ND HOWLEY SHITTTTTT
i'm crying a little in class and continued it so hard in my room after school
oh my gawd..........so hurt ya know?
nangis mulu sampe bengkak abis ini mata yah:'D
i'm crying my self to sleep for 2days til finally.........

2days later after i saw that announcement, i randomly ask my teacher when is actually my final exam will be held.......and she said that
OUR FINAL EXAM WILL BE HELD ON DECEMBER 13TH
ASDFGHJKL
i'm so happy til i lose my word:'D they actually change the final exam date because they aren't ready yet huhuy<3

skip

a week before the concert, i already got my e-ticket only for the concert and i'm searching for the ticket for m&g
i ask everywhere
to HardRock Cafe crews, thedailyconcert, and rajakarcis and none of them know about the m&g

i'm desperately confused cause i really want to meet them...so bad
and a several days later, i saw the m&g option to their concert on their official website
i click it and.........i couldn't find Indonesia as the country option:(:(:(
kratak<//3

desperately, aku searching di twitter keyword "vip m&g bali boyce avenue" and i found kak Ocha!
awalnya aku gakenal kak Ocha tp aku SKSD aja gapapa deh yg penting bisa m&g:')
dan blabla aku di ajarin kak Ocha buat m&g til finally<3333
the m&g e-ticket!
uhuy yeah my m&g e-ticket babyyyyy
nunggunya udh deh-degan banget karena baru dapet e-ticket m&g nya 1hari sebelum ke bali dan 2hari sebelum acara:'D

hingga di hari H.......

i'm so excited!
woke up lately actually-_-v but still so excited

karena dapet e-mail dr boyce avenue m&g crew buat dateng jam 6.30WITA so aku udah sampe di sana jam 6WITA, ketemu sama kak Ocha, mau tuker tiket buat m&g and they said......
THERE'S NO M&G OH MY
SHOCK ABESHHHHH
akhirnya blabla di urusin sama mas-mas nya dan kita gabung sama m&g-ers lainnya (total 6 m&g-ers)
m&g-ers lainnya pun juga shock karena kita gaada yg dari Bali:')
aku dari Sidoarjo, 3 kakak lainnya (1cowo, 2cewe) dari Surabaya, kak Ocha dari Jakarta dan kak Edo dari Solo
kita akrab dari situ and i'm so happy spending time with em karena disitu aku jd berasa punya kakak gitu aw aw (derita anak sulung)
nungguin ngelempo 2jam di depan HardRock Cafe Kuta dengan tampang yg udah lusuh dan mulai banyak tamu VIP HardRock berdatangan.. ketawa2 gara2 John, si 'sebut saja Fritz' (mas-mas yg ngurusin m&g kita), ngomongin Alejandro yang kata si 'sebut saja Fritz' lagi masuk angin gara2 main golf di Uluwatu dan blabla:'3
ohya, kita ketemu John (official audio engineering Boyce Avenue) pas nunggu dan kita having a little nice chat gitu sama dia:'D
kia juga liat si Daniel dari jauh di depan HardRock tapi keburu di suruh masuk duluan sama HardRock crew sebelum aku sempet minta foto:')

hingga akhirnya, setelah nunggu for a longlong time, kita di samperin sama si 'sebut saja Fritz' yg membawa 2 mas botak lainnya dan bilang kalo jam 9 nanti kita bakal di jemput di depan HadRock Cafe buat m&g nya!!
finally baby di kasih kepastian<3

kitapun makan dulu di Pizza Hut....menghabiskan waktu kurang-lebih 1jam dan melewatkan si Alejandro smashing guitar juga:( but not a big deal cause it such as a great time with em, they such as a cool bros and sists:'3
selesai makan, jam 9kurang kita udah standby di depan HardRock Cafe dan jeng
sekitar 9.15, Scott Lawson (Boyce Avenue's cool manager) teriak2 di depan HardRock Cafe nyariin para m&g-ers UYEAAAH
kitapun nyamperin Scott dan di kumpulin sama Scott di pojokan gitu (ngga pojokan juga sih, tapi ya gitu deh, taudeh-_-v)
kita conversation blabla dulu sama Scott, yang si Scott nya juga feeling sorry ke kita karena kita harusnya dapet VIP Lanyard+Poster tapi kita gadapet dan di suruh minta sendiri ke CrowdSurge (m&g ticket seller nya):')
about 15minutes, kita di ajak ke suatu tent artist buat m&g:'D
dan aku deg-degan gewlak ampun deh nervous abesh

disitu nungguin lagi, kedengeran dari luar tent si Alejandro buang ingus LOL terus juga liat ada Fabian masuk ke tent artist nya:'D

DAN AKHIRNYA SETELAH NUNGGU 3JAM, ALHAMDULILLAH
MEREKA KELUAR DARI TENT DAN AMPUN TUHAN BADANNYA RAKSASA BANGET TERNYATA OHMEGEEEEE
sumprit anjir Ale-Daniel yang biasanya di foto2 keliatan pendek gitu ya ternyata GEDE BANGET!!!! pas liat si Daniel tadi di depan HardRock juga mana gakeliatan jelas pula ternyata badannya gede:')
FABIAN APALAGI DUH AMPUN
THEY ARE SO HAWWWWTTTTTTTT

akupun dapet giliran pertama foto sama mereka, kaki gemeteran, badan pucet, mau pingsan, barang bawaan jatoh semua aduh malu abis but i don't really care sama barang2 yg jatuh aku biarin aja padahal kayanya kartu pelajar juga jatuh:'D
aku langsung berdiri di antara Ale-Fabian.....sebenernya aku mau langsung foto butttt si Fabian merentangkan tangannya buat meluk gitu AW akhirnya meluk Fabian dulu dia ramah bgt bilang 'Hellooo':'D terus pas di peluk Ale dia bilang 'Hey, how are you' dan dengan nervous aku jawab'...i..i'm good:'D' and last di peluk Daniel aku lupa dia bilang apa tapi asli dia paling sweet dan buaik:'D
setelah foto cekrik di fotoin sama Scott, mereka tanda tanganin t-shirt ku di punggung ku:'D itu si Daniel yg bilang 'can we use your back (buat mejanya gitu)' dan aku langsung bilang '...o..of course' huaha muka absurd abis pasti itu:'3
abis tanda tangan mereka bertiga, aku kasih giftku (isinya kemeja batik+surat) dan si Daniel yg nerima:'D Ale-Fabian-Daniel bilang 'thank youuu' blabla dan sebelum aku meninggalkan mereka *ea* si Daniel nanya lagi gitu 'this is for us?' aku blg 'yes:D' dia bilang lagi 'aww, thank youuu'
oh my Daniel asli baik bangetnget njir:'D
aku ngga banyak omong sama mereka huhu so sad abisnya kelewat nervous yaudah aku langsung ngacir aja sekarang baru nyesel knp ga ngobrol banyak:')

setelah acara m&g............kitapun masuk lewat ruang staff dan dapet seat di row paling depan dan aku dapet seat di bawah Alejandro pas!! paling depan, paling tengah huhu dream seat deh:'D
kitapun menikmati konsernya ceileh yang kurang-lebih mereka bawain 16 lagu dan sekitar 2 jam (mulai konser Boyce nya jam set 11 WITA, kelar set 1 WITA)
AND THEIR CONCERT WAS SUPER MASSIVE!!
selesai konser, nemenin kak Ocha sama kak Edo dulu beli minum sama ngeroko dulu di circle K, dan kita kehilangan jejak 3 kakak lainnya yg dari Surabaya itu sumpah sedih banget, 3 kakak dari Surabaya yang nonton konser Boyce Avenue di Bali plus ikut M&G nya kalo baca ini plis kabarin aku ya kak, ig/twitter/ask.fm/line: siscawn atau skype: sisshawty atau pin: 276f2e52, hehe-_-v
habis itu foto dulu dan kita berpisah:'D

such a best night oh my, terimakasih ya Allah sudah kasih kesempatan ini:'D makasih bapak-mama, Hard Rock Cafe Kuta Bali crew, John, Scott Lawson, Daniel Manzano, Fabian Manzano, Alejandro Manzano, dan kakak-kakak yang baik-baik semua the m&g fighters, terimakasih semuanya I LOVE YOU GUYS A LOT

SEE YOU GUYS NEXT TIME<3

their autograph on my t-shirt.
Daniel Manzano. such a super duper mega kind guy.
Fabian Manzano. i can't stop starring at him during the concert.
Alejandro Manzano. so so nice and friendly.
Daniel Manzano, Alejandro Manzano, Me, Fabian Manzano

ps. maaf post ini alay. abaikan saja makasih.





ps. ditulis dengan bahasa inggris yang seada-adanya di tahun 2013. tidak sedikitpun diperbaiki. semoga dapat dimaklumi.

Saturday, November 23, 2013

one more angel went home

i don't how to explain this
i just lose my word
but i just want you to know that you mean a lot to us
we do love you a lot
it is huge

for all the things you've done to makes us the best person in life
thank you
for making us the good one
thank you
for giving us a chance
thank you
for believe in us
thank you
for your beautiful smile
thank you
for your big heart
thank you

you know what, ma'am? you're amazing
and a 'thank you' is actually doesn't enough

but now there's nothing left to say but good bye

cause you just went Home
yes. you just did
but ma'am, how to stop my tears?
can you still be here to teach me how for the last time? can you?

Innalillahi Wa Inna Ilaihi Roji'uun
Alm. Bu Wiwid. best class-teacher i've ever known.




ps. ditulis dengan bahasa inggris yang seada-adanya di tahun 2013. tidak sedikitpun diperbaiki. semoga dapat dimaklumi.

Saturday, August 31, 2013

Selamat Jalan, Mbah Putri

Diary?

"8/8/'13
happy ied al-fitri
hari ini mbah uti tiba-tiba minta foto habis kita semua shalat ied
well, lil bit shocking ke-inget jaman mbah kakung dulu...
but ya kita ngga mikir macem-macem, just really happy she ask(:

26/8/'13
hari ini mama mau ke jakarta nengokin mbah, but idk why rasanya pengen banget ikut, tp as always ngga boleh
malemnya pas udh otw stasiun, mama lupa bawa ktp padahal udh 1jam sebelum keretanya berangkat, akhirnya balik lagi ke rumah
alhamdulillah masih sempet mama sampe di stasiun tepat pas penumpang di suruh segera naik ke kereta
pulangnya dari anter mama, aku ada pr matematika tp berasa that was really doesn't matter padahal pr nya banyak banget *skip

27/8/'13
pagi ini..... rasanya males banget sekolah, kepikiran mama di jkt mulu, pr matematika jg belum di kerjain
but begitu di sekolah, rasanya tenang banget duduk di bangku, buku matematika masih rapi di dalem tas padahal temen2 yg lain udh pada sibuk ngerjain, entahlah
jam 9.30, pelajaran pkn (pelajaran sebelum matematika) presentasi
sambil nunggu presentasi, aku duduk di bangku paling belakang, ngebuka laptop sok ngerjain padahal buka hp
iseng liat recent updates bbm, budhe pipin nulis "innalillahi wa inna ilaihi rooji'uun" dan lgsg 'deg' lalu aku bbm budhe "siapa meninggal budhe?"
jawaban budhe.... "mbah uthi, chika".....astaghfirullah, istighfar-istighfar but still aku ngga percaya, then aku mastiin bbm mama nanyain mbah, aku nunggu balesan mama sampe mama jawab..... "mbah udh ngga ada, kak.. tadi jam 8:35.. maafin salah mbah ya, doain terus" and then 'tes', yallah innalillahi....
saat itu juga aku di jemput bapak pulang (tepat sebelum pel. matematika), nangis deres di mobil dan langsung otw purbalingga
bener2 yallah sepanjang perjalanan aku masih juga ngga percaya sampe akhirnya waktu udh di pbg i finally realised........ mbah memang sudah ngga ada"

innalillahi wa inna ilaihi rooji'uun
telah berpulang ke rahmatullah, nenek/ibu kami tercinta hari selasa lalu (27/8) pukul 8:35 di Rumah Sakit M. Thamrin, Jakarta

astaghfirullah, cepat sekali mbah pulang
cepat sekali mbah kembali
mbah, aku belum sempet rawat mbah yg bener, belum sempet jagain mbah lebih lama, belum sempet lihat mbah buat terakhir kalinya, belum bisa hijab sebelum mbah meninggal..
mbah maafin chika ya mbah, chika banyak banget salah sama mbah
aku suka nakal, suka shalat nunda-nunda, suka lelet kalo di suruh mbah
tapi aku sayang sama mbah, kita semua sayang sama mbah, aku masih betah di omelin mbah, masih pengen di nasihatin mbah, masih mau nyiumin mbah
maaf ya mbah, chika tau mbah ngga suka tapi chika masih suka nangis kalo inget sama mbah, inget nasihat2 nya mbah buat kita, nangis setiap habis shalat, nangis di pemakaman, nangis waktu nulis post ini

tapi mbah tenang aja ya mbah, kita sudah ikhlas kok mbah
mbah sudah tenang di sana kan? sudah nemenin mbah kakung di sana, kita semua lega
kita bakal doa dan selalu doa, nuntun mbah sampai di pangkuan-Nya
kami semua mencintaimu, mbah putri
Ya Allah Ya Rabb, berilah tempat yang mulia untuk nenek/ibu serta kakek/ayah (yg juga pergi 7tahun yg lalu) kami tercinta, di sisi-Mu
jadikanlah mereka berdua bagian dari orang-orang yang engkau cintai
terimalah amal dan ibadah mereka di dunia
serta jauhkan mereka dari api neraka
amin

Monday, July 22, 2013

true love

hay this is my first post as a senior high anyway
excited? i..........don't think so but i hope so but i wish it will be so mongopoto-_-
and sooooo...........hay
.......................i miss my junior high haha random abis

but really..........entahlah aku emang lagi ngerasa 'kosong' akhir-akhir ini
i though i miss something, sesuatu yang penting di sini yang hilang
aku ngerasa kalau aku bukan aku..........lalu siapa?
aku gatau is this a new me or shit just happened to me?

banyak banget yang harus di ubah dan kudu adaptasi total plus besar-besaran di sini
setelah 9taun di Mutiara Bunda........bukan waktu yang sebentar terlebih dengan tertanamnya banyak kenangan disana
bitter-sweet memories there gaakan bisa tergantikan

di SMA itu.............beda

kalo di SMP dulu............
mereka buuuuaik karena kita keluarga
mereka rame tapi mereka juga care.....
mereka banyak temen karena semua di rangkul.. bukan sih, kita di sini bukan temen, bukan.. tapi kita saudara
entah itu anak berkebutuhan khusus (i'm terribly missing Ericka, Andrew and Peter), entah anak nakal sekalipun, kita di sini satu, keluarga
ngga ngeliat mereka kakak kelas, adek kelas, guru dan bahkan pemilik yayasan sekolah pun mereka keluarga kita
dan semua kudu ngerti arti keluarga.....unbreakable, susah dan gabisa buat di lepas
and that's we are

kadang ya.......aku suka lupa pagi2 mau ganti baju malah ambil seragam SMP
masih ngerasa pagi itu harus berangkat ke Mutiara Bunda yang udah kayak rumah sendiri
liat anak2 sd main bola lucu bangetttt di lapangan belakang
til then masuk ke kelas tercinta yang pagi2 aja udah rusuh allahuakbar
di sana itu.....nyaman tenang aman
i'm feeling like i've been there forever
it feels like home

and actually.........temen2 SMA banyak yg gatau Mutiara Bunda huhu so mereka gatau how precious Mutiara Bunda is
dan bahkan.......mereka mungkin mikir sih kalo aku aneh........kenapa wallpaper aja masih foto temen2 SMP
that's because they really don't know kenapa aku bisa se-sayang ini sama keluarga kecil SMP ku
dan mereka gamungkin tau cause they didn't get through it
padahal mereka harus tau kalo aku sayang sama keluarga kecil ini karena sebuah alasan
no, so many reasons i mean
yaaaa pokoknya aku sayang mereka meskipun dengan kenyataan yang memang anaknya dikit...........banget mungkin?
tapi yang juga justru itu yang bikin kita nyaman dan lengkettttt kayak lem super, sehari ga ketemu aja super gabisa

di Mutiara Bunda...........aku belajar banyak
aku belajar mencari jati diri karena aku tumbuh di situ, aku belajar jadi aku apa adanya, aku belajar bersosial, aku belajar menyayangi sesama umat, aku belajar kehidupan, arti kehidupan dan nilai kehidupan
yeah how we share, how we love, how we need each other, how we help people, how we care, how to break an awkwardness, how to reach each other, how to make a warm situation, and how to be a family

but sucksssss, life must goes on
kita semua sama-sama butuh temen yang lebih banyak dari ini
berada di komunitas yang lebih besar
ada di tempat baru yang maybe dulunya we never thought we're gonna be
gabisa kan kita membatasi sesama buat bergaul, berteman, bersosial, kenal sama temen baru
kita kan juga butuh sosial yang baru yang sebenernya nyata
kita semua butuh hal lebih yang bisa bikin kita kenal sama dunia and be something that we always wanna be
aku sih cuma berharap di manapun kita sekarang sekolah, nantinya akan menjadikan kita sesuatu yang selama ini kita harap terjadi dan semua impian yang sudah kita perjuangkan bareng2 sebelumnya di SMP dulu finally bisa tercapai
yang masih perlu adaptasi di SMA ini ayo kudu semangatttt:'3 (i always remember ngkik yg suka kasih support semangat di SMA:'))
toh, teman2 di SMA ini juga pasti sayang sama kita as friends so apa salahnya deh at least trying to get close with 'em:'D dan toh, mereka juga lah awal dari ceritaku ada di tengah2 komunitas yang lebih besar, terimakasih teman2 baru:'D

i just hope that someday, we're gonna meet somewhere, my 9th graders.. aku mau lihat kalian sebagai sosok yang udah kalian impikan selama ini
and also be a success person in many single wayssss, keep down to earth amin

hehe

lalu

mau ngapain lagi ini?................

throwback? bosen
tapi gapapdeh lagi gaje

AKU KANGEN
pagi2 masuk kelas udah ruamaiiiiii
kangen kita sukanya nyanyi-nyanyi di kelas di gitarin Mikha sama bos Fuyung KOMPAAAAAK banget sekelas nyanyi semua:'D "dimalam yang sesunyi ini....." langsung semua nyaut
kangen gimana kita bercanda-bercanda plus ngetawain hal paling gajuelassss sekalipun yang selalu bikin aku kebelet pipis;'
kangen MAIN HARRY-POTTER sama ngkikkkk, teman sejak kecil, pake sapu sampe tiang kayu bendera aja di pake
inget juga pas ac rusak terus kita nulis di kertas di tunjukkin ke cctv tiba2 ce Rayna masukkkkk wkwk langsung sekelas cegek kicep semua=")
kangen gimana kelas kita yang serba adaaaaa.. gitar ada, sound system ada, speaker ada, laptop ada, camera slr ada, sampe orang dagang pun ada:'3
kangen kita yang hobi keluar-masuk kelas kalo gaada guruuu, gitaran+ruamai sampe ke dengeran di kantin, terus kalo udah ada guru yg otw kelas kita langsung gupuh ke tempat duduk masing2 sampe tiba2 guru masuk mau marahin eh kitanya udah tenang
kangen dulu pernah mokong habis selesai UAS kelas 7, kabur motoran sama anak2 kelas 8 sampe rumah kak hezki di sukodono
kangen kita dulu pas renang bareng, basket, sparring, nonton futsal, jengukin ini-itu, nonton, rusuhin rumah orang, doyan nge-McD, melancong kemana-mana
kita yang suka cerita hal-hal guejeeeee, bikin video absurdddd sampe ngelawak hal galucu pun jadi lucu:'
kita yang aktif sampe semua event yg buanyaaaaak diikutin semua
inget ngkik yang suka ngejagain di deket jendela kalo udah mau pelajarannya bu Rini sampe berapa detik lagi bu Rini sampe di kelas aja di itung:'
kangen alarm 'KONIMAXX' kalo ko Nick lewat depan kelas=")
inget Mami-Econg yang hobi manggilin mr Jo kalo lagi lewat di depan kelas terus langsung sembunyi sampe mr Jo suka ngeri sendiri
terusssss inget kita yg semua anak di kelas di samain sama hewan kayak peternakan
kangen guru2 super MB yang unik,luar biasa,ajaib,tabah dan gaakan bisa di temuin di tempat lain sumpaaah
inget DBL yang kocak ngedukung boys team pake piyama, teriak2 sampe suara abis, habis gitu nongkrong2 di KFC:'D terus anak2 laki juga yang mbelain malem2 dateng buat support girls team;'D dan anak2 laki yang ngedrum2 latian di bawah terik matahari...ah sampe bikin nangis
masamasa halloween, MBGT, Family Sport Day, perform2 di CW, di TP, di Maspion Square, di Lenmarc, pensi, valentine, friendship camp, graduation tiap taun.....HAAA SEMUAAA
apalagi masamasa di..........BALI;'''' so memorable
kalo mau di ceritain satu2 sih ngetiknya ini bisa sampe saur(?)

intinya sih dari throwback ini i just want to say that I NEVER DOUBT AND I WILL NEVER DENY THAT I CRAZILY LOVE THEM.. oke lebay, pokoknya aku sayang mereka<3
kenapa kenapa kenapa? kalo di tanya gitu aku cuma bisa jawab entah, but yang aku tau.......karena mereka nerima aku
they love me just the way i am, they can be anything for me, they never ask me to change to be anybody else, they made me strong and be a better one, intinya mereka membentuk aku jadi jauh lebihhhhh baik, selayaknya keluarga yang mau do anything buat yang terbaik buat sesama keluarganya
sesama great big fams of Mutiara Bunda, huge warm fams of 9th-graders, sweet little fa(r)ms of NegenPointTwee

........and last aku juga mau say THANK YOU GUYS THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING THAT WE'VE BEEN THROUGH TOGETHER DUH UNFORGETTABLE.. there's nothing that can replace you
makasih sudah kasih aku kesempatan ada di tengah2 keluarga ini
to be in this family is a miracle
to have you guys is a gift
and to love you all is a blessed
kisah kita di sini bukanlah akhir kawan, kisah ini adalah awal perjalanan kita
but just let's make it last sisters and brothers, distance was just a number, no matter wherever we destined to be, our journey is not over

Luv! xx
Sisca Nusi Wiandri