siscamorfosa: 2014

kupandang keluar jendela
langit gelap sore ini
mendung...aku resah

masih terlihat mengintip sedikit sinar matahari di sela pepohonan
meskipun petir telah menyuruhnya lenyap
namun ia tetap tak mau lelap

kupejamkan mata
membiarkan sisa sinar matahari itu menghangatkan aku
semakin lama ia kian menghilang
mungkin ia takut
atau mungkin tak ingin ribut

kudengar rintik hujan perlahan turun
dan lagu itu tiba-tiba mengalun
lagu sendu
bawa masa lalu
sentuh kalbu

hujan jadi deras
air mata juga terkuras
habis
melankolis

aku melihatmu di sela hujan itu
aku mengingatmu di dalam alun lagu ini
aku menemukanmu dimanapun
kamu belum pergi

ah

bukan

aku belum biarkanmu pergi

maaf

pergilah jika mau
pergilah kalau ingin
aku tak lagi memaksa

tapi jangan bawa memori itu
biarkan aku megingatnya
setidaknya aku mengingat hal indah

hangat

tinggalkan untukku
tolong

karena aku suka
aku suka mengingat aku pernah bahagia

denganmu
di dalam bahagiamu

Senin, 10 November 2014, 2:57pm
bersama hujan, tetes infus, aroma rumah sakit
Sisca Nusi Wiandri

since it's still january which is the beginning of 2014, i think it wasn't too late (yet) to reviewing what i've been through and what's on earth happen in my 2013
oh, and no, i'm not going to make some new year resolutions cause i know it's gonna looks quite a lot like my last year resolutions so....yeah ha-ha

and this is what happen to my 2013:

in the beginning of 2013, i (and my 9th-graders friend all around the world) had a lot of exam trials (or just usually called 'try out') to prepared our National Exam which really drives us crazy. we also had a fully tears 'farewell and near National Exam apologizing time' day (it's a weird name, i know, i'm sorry, i made it myself few seconds ago)
around April, we had (we've done it now) our junior high National Exam and it was good....maybe.....perhaps....i think, yeah even it was rainy in our last exam but it was literally fun
after National Exam, we really really had a good quality time as a 9th grade student, we had our last party class with lots of pizzas (that moment was so fun) and a preparation for our graduation which is literally emotional and....i don't know, those moment just felt unreal. we really had a lot of fun with each other, our lovely teachers, our juniors, and just amazing...it was indescribable
we were also busy to manage our senior high preparation and tests.. and. so. do. i. and. salim. and also. aji. we were actually supposed to school in Muhammadiyah Senior High School (SMAMDA) together. but caused by an accident (look at number 8), i have to moved out. but those time was so fun and memorable cause we three had a lot of new amazing experiences. it was also nerve-racking to wait for the result tests
on May, WE WENT TO BALI FOR FAREWELL TOUR AND IT WAS SO SO GREAT and it was a good time with those bitches and bros, i was so happy even i (and salim) can't went with school (so we went there by plane and it was such a new fun experience, but i have to missed Ma'am Ifa's birthday party), that's not a big deal...the last day there, I GOT MY SMAMDA'S RESULT THAT SAID THAT I ACCEPTED ON BAHASA CLASS WITH SALIM AND AJI ON SOCIAL CLASS. we. made. it.
June, our National Exam's result coming out. mine....wasn't good enough, and i think it was disappointing ha-ha but i won't mind it, i've done my best and mostly because i did it myself
14th of July......*drum noises* graduation day!! woohooooo it was exciting, emotional, lots of fun, tears of pain, tears of joy, laugh, smile on each other's faces, drama and farewell.....we find it hard to believe that we were finally there, we've through everything together in these amazing 3years and now it's time.....to end it all, to say goodbye, and to let it go..it is literally over
there's an accident with my grandparents that made me have to move from SMAMDA and find another school......to summary, i finally here, in one of Vocational High School in town where i know no one and..............lots of differences from my middle school and elementary school. it was the hardest time in 2013 or even in my whole life.. so i won't talk about it anymore
*lot of things changed here* *yes i'm talking bout love* *i'm starting find it cheesy* *cut myself off* *lol* *no* *skip*
augustus 27, this is also the hardest time in 2013...i, we, lost our strong, inspirational, great, amazing, beautiful Grandma in the world. it's so hard to write about it. i miss her much.
i had to say goodbye to my old memorable phone
i took a car driving course
i finally can drive a car
i went to Jogja and met my childhood talented friend, Adel, since it has been a long long time..
i started loving Zoella, Joe Sugg, Alfie Deyes, Marcus Butler, Caspar Lee and friends, and i started watching them almost everyday like i can't stop they're amazing
Tiffany Alvord followed me on twitter, Fabian Manzano from Boyce Avenue replied my tweet, and Matthew Grieh from Antics Dance Crew (semi finalist of Got to Dance) favorited my tweet
*struggling with school stuffs and friends and life that's getting rough*
i learn about something new, new life and new things with my senior high friends which is really open my eyes, i'm so lucky
4th of december...........drum please.......*dumdumdum*.........I WENT TO BOYCE AVENUE'S CONCERT IN BALI WHICH IS MASSIVE like it was a dream and oh my God i just can't believe it.. i went there with my own money, met some new friends, got to meet them in person and it felt so amazing and oh geez, i'm a happy girl

so, that's it, my 2013, i'm sorry if it seems boring to you but i'm so grateful about my 2013 and i think it was my most massively amazing and wonderful year like ever

how's yours?;)